
We lost our Cappy two days ago. This past weekend he began to have labored breathing so on Monday I took him to our vet. I knew he hadn’t been doing well for the past two weeks but I was in denial. I knew that when I took him to the vet it would be for the last time. I was putting off the inevitable. But when Captain began to gasp for air I put him in the car and drove him to the vet. He listened to his chest and told me that it was full of fluid. The first X-ray showed nothing but fluid and perhaps some tumors but it wasn’t clear enough for a real diagnosis. So the vet gave Captain something to help his kidneys rid his body of the fluid and waited to take another X-ray. The tumors were large and revealed there was very little lung function left.
My husband, daughter and I were there in the backroom of the vet clinic, petting Captain and considering the hopeless prognosis. We could take him home for a few days to love him and receive the great love he always offered and then bring him back before the other horrible symptoms such as seizures presented or we could make Monday, August 6th, the day he would leave us.
Considering the events of this weekend and Captains’ inability to move around (and obvious pain) we couldn’t take him home for more of that.
We made the dreaded decision.
We took Cappy home one more time but it was the saddest trip we have ever made with him.
Captain lies near the backyard bushes he would hide under when he was able to escape the house. The deep pink Crepe Myrtles are beautiful right now and they provide shade for him.
Captain, with his lion-like personality, enriched every year we spent with him. One extremely cold winter night in February, 1994 at Fort Drum, New York as we were going to sleep, I could hear a cat calling outside. It was sixteen degrees below zero, (not the wind chill, the actual temperature) and the snow was piled high. The cat was meowing loudly and sounded so mournful. I had a hard time sleeping that night thinking about him. I couldn’t imagine how any animal could survive in that frigid environment. We were living in Army housing at Fort Drum and the thought that any person would send their pet out of doors or abandon them made me angry.
I was haunted by the clamor the cat made and determined to rescue him. He was like the town caller, calling to all who would listen, to rescue him. The next morning I put our cat, Abbey’s pet carrier outside on the front doorstep, with dry food and water in it. I placed a blanket on top to give the carrier some kind of warmth. The water kept freezing so I would put hot water from the tap into the bowl and change it every hour because it would freeze so quickly. I kept opening the door to check to see if we had a boarder in the little shelter but all day Saturday there were no takers. Sunday morning I opened the door and there he was, sitting inside the carrier. I shut the door to it and quickly brought him inside putting the carrier in the bathroom.
We already had two cats, Abbey and Sabby, so I wanted to make sure the huge cat inside the carrier wasn’t wild. I opened the door to the pet carrier and let the cat out to get a good look at him. He immediately meowed at me and rubbed his body next to my legs. I bent down to pet him and he licked my hand. It was love at first sight for me. My husband was a battalion commander at the time and always at work and on that Sunday he came home at lunch and found me sitting with our soon to be named “Captain”. Bob harrumphed and fussed, saying we didn’t need another cat. It was good that I had rescued him, he told me but he wanted me to take the cat to the Humane Society the next day.
I made sure my husband was present when I called the Watertown Humane Society on the following Monday. I asked them what their policy was with stray cats. Did they euthanize them if they didn’t find a home? They did. After I got off the phone I looked at my husband and he said, “we’re keeping him.”
I took Captain to the vet in Watertown to make sure he was in good health and he was. The vet thought he was about two years old. We knew he must have been someone’s pet so I made a flyer and put it around the neighborhood advertising that we had found a great cat. I hoped no one would claim him though. Thankfully, no one did.
Our youngest daughter, Charlotte suggested naming him Captain because she thought he was a brave cat. My husband said that he was a better company commander than any of his own Captains so he was officially named Captain. It wasn’t long before he acquired the nickname, Cappy and one day while enjoying Captain’s presence, my husband made up a song about him called, Captain the Wonder Cat. He earned that title.
Captain loved all of us but his absolute favorite person was my husband, Bob. Captain loved to be near him and slept right near his legs every night. He had a special chair that Captain liked to sit on in the computer room and if anyone was sitting in it when Captain wanted in it they were ordered by Bob to get up and let Captain sit in it. If Bob was in the den watching t.v. Captain was on his lap. They had a very special bond.
Captain was like a giant to our other two cats, Sabby and Abbey, yet, he was the gentlest of all giants. He never sought out a fight with the other two cats but would defend himself when attacked. He loved to play, chase and romp through the house. Although the other cats were afraid of balloons, Captain loved to play balloon soccer, chasing the balloons through the house. When Captain came through the room with a balloon the other cats would scatter.

He was also the prankster, walking across the piano keys at three a.m. and planting a live mouse on the end of the bed when my husband was out of town. Captain was the ring leader of the celebration by our cats of the National Bad Cat Days.
Everywhere we lived, Captain, being an outdoorsman, always managed to catch a moment when a door was left ajar or a window without a screen was open. He would take off, leaving us searching everywhere to find him. But several times when we couldn’t find him, Captain came home on his own. He had chosen us. Something tells me he knew from the beginning that we had receptive ears at the house on Fort Drum and that is why he called us.

Captain, along with Sabby and Abbey, went through many moves with our Army family but when we went to Germany it was Captain alone who made the trip. Sabby and Abbey stayed with our daughters at their college apartment. Sabby and Abbey went to college, Captain went abroad.
Cappy loved being in command at our home in Germany. Being the most social of all of our cats, he became very popular with all of our friends and guests from overseas. When I would leave to go to work the last year we were stationed in Germany he would be in the living room window to farewell me and when I came home he would be there in the window to welcome me.
Captain made his home with us, staying close by, keeping us company. If Captain were a character in literature he would be Thomas Hardy’s Gabriel Oak,
At home by the fire, whenever I look up, there you will be. And whenever you look up, there I shall be.

Thanks to those who have visited from the Modulator’s Friday Ark #151 and to Momma Grace and Company, the hosts of this weeks Carnival of the Cats #177. I really appreciate your kind words.
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I am sitting here with tears running down my face. They were teetering on the brink when I realized that your most excellent Cappy had gone from us (temporarily I'm sure) but even more so when I read your beautiful and loving tribute to him.
Rest in peace, handsome boy. I look forward to meeting you someday, elsewhere. You'll know me - I'll be the lady with the two chocolate brown Persians, a feisty Maine Coon cat and a deeply silly Siamese surrounding me!
August 8th, 2007 | #
Thanks for your words Gayle. I miss him so much. My husband is really taking it hard too.
August 8th, 2007 | #
A beautiful tribute to a precious one who will always live in your hearts. Like Gayle, I'm crying too. God bless.
August 8th, 2007 | #
Thank you dear Sissy.
August 8th, 2007 | #
It is so sad & so hard to have a beloved pet go to the eternal-life. Don't worry Laura Lee & Bob, I'm sure my daddy is looking after him now along with several of Captains 'cousins'. The big scary (teddy bear)man LOVED all cats.
The 'twins' I have now turned 12 in April of this year. So far doing well.
My last 'daughter-cat' was 21 & a half when she passed on and I missed over a week of work & had to see my doctor for some pills. (Some of my co-workers thought I was crazy) but I still see her in my dreams and still cry on occasion when looking at her photos. I also think she is here once in a while! The twins see something I can't and it makes me wonder if it truly is her. She had a special dresser drawer she liked to sleep in and I couldn't put anything in it for a couple of years. Mom has a pet/stray cemetary in her yard, everyone is in their favorite place.
I wish I was there with you...It is hard to give you a hug over the net.
I have to go wash my face in cold water now.
Love you dear cousin!
August 8th, 2007 | #
I know Cappy would love Uncle Ed. He was also a gentle giant. Thanks Nancy. And thanks for the hug.
August 8th, 2007 | #
Oh Laura Lee, I am so sorry for your loss. He reminded me so of my Dodger. Remember all the good times and poor Sabby is probably wondering why you are hugging him so much...
August 8th, 2007 | #
Thanks Kim. Sabby is depressed. He spent the past two weeks close by Captain. He would curl up with him and let him have the window to sit in.
August 8th, 2007 | #
oh poor Sabby. He'll need a friend. you guys probably go back to school soon also. My Amanda had a Big stuffed Bunny that she would cuddle up with after she was alone. She would even give it a bath.
August 9th, 2007 | #
I think we are going to open up the Charlotte Wing and gradually introduce Sabby to Asta and Amos.
August 9th, 2007 | #
Let me know your techniques on the opening of the Charlotte Wing - although I think my Sam is a tougher nut to crack!
August 9th, 2007 | #
August 9th, 2007 | #
Laura - my deepest sympathies. Our fur babies are SO very important to us, aren't they. Cappy will surely be greeted heartily over the Rainbow Bridge by a cat named Mulligan (who could be his twin), 2 cats named Jasmine & Raja (brother & sister), another cat named Missy. And 2 rather large rabbits named Sable and Blossom. Blossom will likely be in the lead - calling the shots and holding the dear Captain's spot for him.
In the meantime, your blog-friends are here for you.
August 9th, 2007 | #
Thank you Kris. My cousin, Nancy told me about the Rainbow Bridge. Captain will be in good company. My husband has been sick at heart and had to stay home from work today. It's just taken the heart out of him.
August 9th, 2007 | #
Friday Ark #151...
We'll post links to sites that have Friday (plus or minus a few days) photos of their chosen animals (photoshops at our discretion and humans only in supporting roles). Watch the Exception category for rocks, beer, coffee cups, and....? Visit all the ...
August 10th, 2007 | #
Thank you Sophie.
August 10th, 2007 | #
A new friend for our late beloved woofie Critter and late feline friends Rataplan, Ragnar, Rabauw, Misj Masj, Rhuarhi, Rhuarhuss and Bar-Choc to frolic with over The Rainbow Bridge, but a sad loss for you and a devastating blow for your Beloved Husband. If there is ever one picture of which I could say: "there is Love radiated in the Giga-watt range..." it is the first one above. The memories we treasure, but the love will endure. You think of him with a smile, and a faint holler will be heard from somewhere over that Bridge.
Goddess keep him and bless you.
August 10th, 2007 | #
Thanks so much Babeth.
August 10th, 2007 | #
Hi, I'm here via the Friday Ark. Just want to say I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so clear from your tribute to him just how much he meant to you and how much you loved him. I'm going to share this post w/my husband, who loves our cats dearly and is also a Thomas Hardy fan. The Hardy quote is just perfect for describing what we all feel for our kitties.
August 10th, 2007 | #
There is nothing as gut-wrenching as losing a pet, I think. The non-verbalness of it all must be part of what makes the attachment so strong, and the loss so much harder to bear. I still feel my black and white Kitty hopping up and rotating on my lap until she found just the right position and place, whenever I would read in that particular chair and put my legs on the ottoman. She's been gone as long as she was alive but I still think I feel her pawing my head to get up and feed her breakfast. It's sad but it's wonderful, too.
Thanks for sharing so many pictures and thoughts about Captain. I'll be thinking of you and how hard it is to lose such a sweetie, and yet how wonderful, too, to have lived with him.
August 10th, 2007 | #
Thank you Anne. You pointed out something that I think is really special about pets. There's not a lot of verbal exchange (except for Captain, he was extremely verbal) but that doesn't matter with them. I miss hearing him announce himself when he comes up the stairs. He meows all the way up, usually with something in his mouth. Once it sounded just like he said, "Mother."
August 10th, 2007 | #
Thank you Annie.
August 10th, 2007 | #
Oh, I'm so terribly sorry to hear of your loss! I am certain he's curled up in the better part of kitty heaven!
I've got a couple of aging pups myself...one is the best dog I've ever met (adopted from a shelter). My heart begins to break just thinking about how she's slowing down...I'll be unglued when she leaves this world. A big hug to you and yours!
August 10th, 2007 | #
Thanks Merri.
August 11th, 2007 | #
That was a great recollection of his life and photo spread. Sympathies and best wishes from The Scratching Post.
August 12th, 2007 | #
Thank you so much.
August 12th, 2007 | #
Oh Laura, it has been such a sad week. Our eyes are leaking here, and we are so sorry for your loss. Captain's rescue story is very touching. We are too, glad that no one claimed him from the flyers. Our hearts and our tears and our love goes out to you and your family. Rest Sweet Captain Rest.
August 13th, 2007 | #
What a lovely tribute. Rest in peace, Captain.
Hugs and purrs from Lisa and Siofra.
August 13th, 2007 | #
I came over from Megan & the Bad Kitty Cats. Your story is so sweet, made Mom's eyes leak real bad. What a wonderful cat, enjoy his memories.
Tara
August 13th, 2007 | #
What a wonderful Tribute to your friend Captain. Many people don't understand that losing a pet is sometimes as heartbreaking as losing an actual human family member. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this time.
Thankfully Captain is now resting in peace, free from pain and all discomfort.
August 13th, 2007 | #
[...] Zed Monster wrote: Hi EveryKitty, We have more sad news. Our friend Captain at Wide Awake Cafe went home to the bridge this past week. It would be great to show our love and support. It is never easy to lose our loved ones, and well, we understand what it means to have kind words, even from people we don’t know very well yet. His Rescue story is very touching too, which Mama Laura shares with us. Rest Well Sweet Captain. Purrs and Loves from Me, Zed Monster [...]
August 13th, 2007 | #
What a wonderful life your Captain had with you. Celebrate the memories and know that he loved you as much as you and your family loved him.
Sending strength, Anni, Samantha & Bebe
August 13th, 2007 | #
August 13th, 2007 | #
We are sorry to hear about Captian's passing. He seems like he was a wonderful cat and companion. Our condolences.
August 13th, 2007 | #
We are terribly sorry. You did the right thing, and Captain knew how much you loved him. Hugs and purrs.
August 13th, 2007 | #
We are so sorry for your loss. Our purrrrrrs and purrayers are with you during this time. We are so sorry we never met Cappy, but your lovely tribute to him makes us feel as if we had.
We salute you Captain!
August 13th, 2007 | #
What a wonderful story. To liken Captain to Gabriel Oak - well, that sums up your gentle giant to a T - I get the best most vivid impression of your handsome captain. So sorry you had to say goodbye but I am so glad you found each other - it was meant to be. Rest in peace Captain. Purrs and tears for you and your family, but smiles too at such a wonderful cat. xxx
August 13th, 2007 | #
I'm so sorry to learn about your loss. It will be hard but it also sounds as if you have many wonderful memories and friends to help you through the difficulty. From more experience than I want to have had I know that we never forget those beasties we've loved and who have shared their love with us. Our hearts feel as if they're breaking; I think they're really just expanding so we'll always feel that love.
August 13th, 2007 | #
Anyone who looks at that first picture can see the love between the Captain and his bean. We are so sorry for your loss.
Sending some comforting puurrrsss to all of you from all of us.
(We just dropped in from the Cat Blogosphere, if you are wondering 'who the heck are these kitties')
August 13th, 2007 | #
Leaky eyes.... We are so very sorry to hear about Captain going to the bridge. We take comfort in the thought that he had many wonderful years with you and is at a peaceful place now! Thank you for sharing his story with us, our purrs are with you!
Karl and Anastasia
August 13th, 2007 | #
Leaky eyes.... We are so very sorry to hear about Captain going to the bridge. We take comfort in the thought that he had many wonderful years with you and is at a peaceful place now! Thank you for sharing his story with us, our purrs are with you!
August 13th, 2007 | #
So sorry for your loss. Like in your case, all four of my cats seemed to have found us one way or the other. Our newest cat, Miss Kitty, looks alot like Cappy and she adores my husband. He just recently went to Iraq and she is lost without him. Please tell your husband (and you) he will always have those memories. I have had many cats over the years and have had to experience the loss you are going through now. It is never easy. I, too, have had to take off work and just mourn in my own way. The one thing my cat-less friends do not understand is they all had their own different personalitites and character. You can never replace a beloved cat. Just get more and share their love. That's what I do, plus I also have 3 dogs. That's a whole new story. Again, enjoyed your story on "Captain" and am very sorry for your loss.
August 13th, 2007 | #
Thank you all so much for your words of comfort. It really does mean so much to us. I read all of your comments out loud to my husband this evening and it meant a lot to him too.
August 14th, 2007 | #
Mom you did a great job on this. I was afraid to read it before but I wish I had. He was such a good kitty. I love Captain.
August 14th, 2007 | #
We are so sorry to hear of your loss. Captain sounded like a most excellent cat and companion. It's so very hard to lose our friends.
Purrs,
Parker
August 14th, 2007 | #
Thanks Charlotte. I miss him. Sabby is not eating and I think it's because he has lost his appetite. He and Captain had a pretty social meal-time.
August 14th, 2007 | #
Hope you are feeling a little less fragile. I was comforted when my extraordinary BooBoo departed my life by the knowledge that animals don't fear death - they only fear pain. You spared Cappy that, which is a very good thing. More hugs from me, the magnificent Sam and the ever-silly Tim (aka Froot Loop).
August 15th, 2007 | #
Captain must have had a happy life with you, and you'll always have those good memories of him. Sending vibes and purrs for strength and comfort for your loss.
August 15th, 2007 | #
I want to meet your silly Tim and Sam the Magnifico. And you too! Thanks so much Gayle. I am better but I will never stop missing Cappy.
August 15th, 2007 | #
You don't know me. I just stumbled on your website searching for something else. I read your story about Captain the Cat. My wife and I started out with one cat in 1993, and now we have five, all rescues from our neighborhood, all had been abandoned at one time or another. I've lost three of my cat pals in the last three years, and Mr. Kitty, the latest one, was especially hard. He had liver disease and passed away last winter. You can see all my brood, including Mr. Kitty here:
http://www.georgeblowfish.com/kitties.html
Hang in there. You gave Captain a good life and rescued him from certain death. He couldn't have wanted anything more.
Geo Blowfish
Indep. MO.
August 21st, 2007 | #
Thank you Geo.
August 22nd, 2007 | #
[...] Sabby’s doing better. He was quite depressed after our sweet Captain died. For about a week after we lost Captain, Sabby didn’t eat. He wouldn’t go upstairs, choosing to stay down in the den. We started giving him some catnip, held him on our laps and brought him up to the computer room. He is better now. We all still miss Cappy. [...]
September 21st, 2007 | #
[...] It’s been a year since we said our last farewell to Captain the Wonder Cat. On August 6th, 2007 our Cappy died. [...]
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